WHERE LOVE BEGINS

 

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Oh that the old bounds
of love
would break
and I would find
that my heart space
could be allowed to grow
until all light
that fills my chest
would be strong enough
to escape
to spill over
into everything
that I touch
and soon
there will be no more
denying
and I will become
the Love
that I have dreamed

I did not know
it lived
as a force unto itself
I did not know
that in its shattering brilliance
it makes all else
unnecessary
and so my purpose
upon the earth
is discovered
For if I can
allow this acceptance
of the process
of my birth
then
like a fairytale coming true
the happy ending is real
not because
the pain is over
but because the joy
has just begun

It is a new idea
to me
today
that I need never give in
to self-judgement again
It is a choice
and I can choose
another way
So let
the other way
happen now
and now and now
for in the ending
of blame
lives my trust
that I am
in my soul
nothing but goodness
and so whatever clothing I wear
in whichever lifetime
inside my heart
I am incapable
of wrong

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In this absolution
I am joined
by my mother
and my mother’s mother
and all
of their kin
and my father’s father
and all the men
before them
For each of these
also walked
in their chosen clothes
and they reached out their hands
to me
and they gave me
what they knew

Through the new heart
that grows inside me
I touch them easily
and I see my face
in every form they have taken
in every pain
they have received
and in every answer
they have spoken
both light
and dark

When I was a child
gratitude
was something expected
and so I learned
the words
But now
as a woman
for the first time I truly feel
that the largeness of love
must be filled
with thankfulness
for there is no more
holding on
no more claiming
no more fear
that I can lose
what I have never
really owned

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The light
the light of unnamed joy
moves me
to sing
what has not yet
been heard
and I am ready
to be joined
in this song
I am ready
to be matched
in this flight

That
is the way
of such love
It welcomes
the world
in all her aspects
It guides us
to all her delights
But if you have not yet
felt this
do not wonder
if it will come
simply follow the light
next time you see it
inside your chest
inside you
and you will have found the place
where Love lives
where it all
begins

from Oonah

 

much love, Adi

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